Wander & Wonder

As the end of the year approaches and I complete more and more rotations, I’ve been feeling a mix of emotions. At the start of med school, not knowing things felt overwhelming, like constantly stumbling in the dark. But there was also something comforting about not knowing, summarized by the expression, ‘Ignorance is Bliss’. Now that I actually do know more, it feels like the bar keeps getting higher, expectations are growing, and there is a constant feeling that no matter how much I learn, it still is not enough. At the same time, I am more used to being thrown into the unknown, and I have more faith in myself that I will be able to figure it out, and I have ‘proof’ that the rotation gets a little bit easier each day (and that in the moment, the days seem to pass by slowly, but that as a whole, the rotation flies by). Every phase or stage of learning feels like it should be easier than the last, and it does in many ways. But with each step forward, there is a new onset of challenges. I guess what they say is true: nothing great comes easy!